#100happydays: Savannah

                         

Sometimes people hit the friend jackpot. And, let me tell you, I certainly have.

Spotlight today is on Savannah. She's amazing. Her heart is pure gold. And today, she knew I was feeling crappy. It was mostly residual crappiness from yesterday, but she knew. So she came over to check on me. To share Jackson's giggles. To just make sure I was ok. That's just the kind of person she is. And I am so grateful to have her. And so happy the girls have her as their "auntie". 

....to the moon. xoxo

#100happydays: nightmares end.

The last four months I've experienced to many unexplainable emotions. And most of them bad. My thoughts have been consumed by hate and guilt and anger and bitterness. I honestly have no idea how I didn't break down and get admitted into State Hospital North. Probably because I had to keep my composure and my happy face for the littles. I still don't understand how a person can be so selfish and horrible. It absolutely breaks my heart that the girls have been forced to endure so much hurt, so many let downs, and so much pain because of how selfish their mother is...but it's finally over. This nightmare we have been forced to live in it FINALLY ended with the sweet script of Magistrate Fortier. And I am so relieved. So overjoyed. That is my happy today. That our lives can have some semblance of normalcy soon. Thank you, Derek Pica...you gave us so much reassurance and helped keep us positive through this hell. Friends: don't have kids with selfish humans then get divorced. It's a really bad idea.

#100happydays: rock the vote

Before I begin, I beg, IGNORE my makeup free face. I rolled out of bed late this am, realized we were out of milk and cereal, so was forced to cook French Toast for breakfast...between that and getting the littles ready, there was no time for me to pretty up.

Ok, now that we have that out of the way, it was School Levy Election Day here in District 2. And that, pretties and gents, is a big deal. A huge deal in fact. If your school district was holding a levy election today and you didn't rock the vote, that's a big shame. For two reasons. First, our Founding Fathers gave us a right that most people in the world aren't afforded: free elections. For everyone. You get to have a voice. Thousands and thousands of men and women have fought and sacrificed and died to protect that right. And that's not something to take for granted. Second, it's for education. If our future generations aren't educated, then, well, we have nothing. Education to me is the single most important thing there is. Education brings understanding, tolerance, and a desire to help make the world better. It's a really, really big deal. 

You see, friends, voting is important...especially when it's for schools. And I am SO HAPPY that I voted for schools today. And I hope you did too. And I hope that if you didn't, you think about doing it (and DO IT) next time. It's a pretty big deal...did I say that already?

#100happydays: bed

My happy right now is finally getting home, after a whirlwind trip, to my warm bed. That's it. Sweet dreams.

#100happydays: this love.

For reals, you guys. Two years ago I was SO happy to be in a relationship that I knew was a dead end. In fact, I sought out men based on their never-getting-hitched appeal. Enter this guy. He drives me bat shit crazy. He makes me want to pull out my hair and scream out at the top of my lungs. And he makes me the happiest effing lady on the planet. He gets me and I get him and we drive each other NUTS but he is my person. And I never thought I'd have a male-marry me-stuck with this guy for life sort of person. I wanted to die single. I loved being single and free and independent. Until this guy. I guess that's love. You don't know how great it is until it slaps you in the face by the recycle bin and you call your BFF and tell her "I think he's my Jason"...

#100happydays: Moving

Those of you who have known me a long time, know I've always been a gypsy of sorts. In the last ten years I've lived in three states and seven cities. I never stayed one place to long. That is until I met them. Now moving makes me super anxious. I worry about the girls making friends, getting cultured, growing up to fast. I stress over all the details that never mattered in my bachelorette-hood. But now they do matter, because I have two beautiful, brave, smart girls who depend on their daddy and I to make the best decisions for them. And, you guys, sometimes that's scary and hard. So I brought them to their new "home" this weekend. Anxiety was high. I was scared to death that they would hate it. I was scared of so many things. But they love it. Even when, in typical Seattle fashion, it's pouring down rain. So my #100daysofhappy is happiness in the rain. Gum walls, aquariums, markets, and family are awesome whether it's raining or not. And if the girls love it here when it's pouring, I know they'll love it even more when it's not, and that is something to smile about.

#100happydays: Playing Together

Being stepmom to two beautiful human girls and momma to one beautiful pooch us hard work. Sometimes it makes me want to dig a hole all the way to Australia and disappear into the outback. Other days my heart is full of so much love and appreciation for them that I think it could burst. And sometimes, like when the three of them are playing and having fun with one another, I'm filled with happiness and gratitude. That they can be innocent, fearless, smart, and full of so much laughter. I love it. Every second of all of it. Even the seconds when I want to dig a hole to Australia.